what I think about when I think about running

I'm a runner. No, I'm not a runner; I'm a trail runner. If I were a real runner, would I make myself run on other surfaces anyway? How can I call myself a runner if I'm not running. Why am I not running. I've never gone this long without running before. Is there something wrong. Should I make myself run. What if I make myself run and then it turns into a chore and I don't love it anymore. But I need to run - it clears my mind. So does yoga. But it's where I get my ideas. They come when walking too. But it helps me lose weight more quickly. The weight will be gone when the reasons why you needed the weight are gone - stop trying to rush the process. But it's summer - I always run the trails in the summer. Clearly that isn't true since you are not running right now. But I get to see more trails. You will see them anyway - and now you can bring your camera along. But .. But .. But ..

I finally think I know what the problem is. I identify with the role of a runner. I have this image in my mind of what that role means and, now that I'm not sure I match the image, I am somewhat lost.

I am replacing that role with a new one.

I am a person. Sometimes I run. Sometimes I don't run. That's it. End of story.

Comments

[Toni]

You are so introspective lately, E. All I can say is good for you.

[elizabeth @ the blue lotus]

@toni: thanks. sometimes i must confess that i wish i could take a break, but i know it's all good. :)