random acts of healing

This is totally not the post I was going to write tonight, and it is not exactly related to reiki, but the memory popped into my head so I want to write it down.

Over the past couple of years, I've experienced a great deal of (right) shoulder pain. It comes and goes, but when it comes, it really really hurts. I can bear it for a while, but eventually I have to limit my time on the computer, which is when I notice the pain the most.

I still don't really know what causes it. (Truthfully, I haven't put a great deal of effort into understanding it, for which I apologize to my dear and loyal body.) But the why isn't really important for the purpose of this story.

One day, the pain was especially bad. I didn't know what to do. It occurred to me that I had heard people talking about asking the angels to help with healing. I decided to try it. I sat down on my meditation cushion and thought, "Dear angels, please send me healing for the pain in my right shoulder." A few seconds later, I felt this warm intense buzzing feeling go into my shoulder and down my right arm to my elbow. Almost immediately, the pain was completely gone. It was amazing.

Naturally, I've tried asking the angels for healing since, and never really noticed anything. But still .. this one time, something happened. Of course, it could be coincidence. Or random. Or anything. But it's yet another experience that reminds me that sometimes it's better to try something myself and see what my experience is, then to dismiss it outright because it seems wacky or silly or other people dismiss it.

{Ok, now that I'm reading this, I am cracking up at myself. I mean, I am in pain and don't know what to do, so I ask the angels for help? Instead of, you know, visiting a chiropractor. Or something logical. Like a normal person. Clearly my brain works in mysterious ways.}

Comments

[Tara]

I find it really comforting reading your posts Elizabeth. It's such a hard-to-break habit to rationalise and talk ourselves out of experiences like this. And to think that the first thing we 'should' do is go down the conventional route because it's 'normal'. But if it works....! I think we could all use a bit more magic, it's just we're trained out of believing in it as we grow up. Oh, and I hope your shoulder feels better. :)

[mindy]

I've had this same pain in my right shoulder from being on the computer too much. sometimes i've used my left hand for the mouse. which is kinda silly but it gives my right shoulder a bit of a break. I will try the prayers. makes sense to me. and no i don't think you are silly. hugs!

[elizabeth @ the blue lotus]

@Mindy: I always wonder if it's from computer use, but I'm just not sure that's it. I did try the mouse thing, but man is it hard! It takes me so long to do things that I usually give up after a few minutes. Thank you for sharing what you do.

@Tara: That is such a good point. Magic (or things that seem like magic) used to be so much easier to believe in. Too bad we can't all be like kids again .. and yes, if it works! (Also, it's cheaper. ;)

[Elaine Grundy]

Hi Elizabeth, I just found your blog via Havi, I love your posts! Wholeheartedly agree with you, I've found as I try out everything instead of giving it 'the look' I have noticed that anything that makes me feel good in general works, and anything that brings in fear or doubt (like a lot of the ritual around the good stuff) doesn't.

Now that's my mantra - before I even try it out - am I doing it cos I'm worried what will happen if I don't, or am I doing it cos it sounds fun, joyful and open!

[elizabeth @ the blue lotus]

@Elaine: hee. Giggling at "the look" as I know that one well. That is so great how you were able to notice what things work for you - and then connect them to the reason they do or don't! I will have to think about what works and what doesn't and see how it fits the feel good vs fear/doubt thing. Thank you!